Experience description:
From
conversations to emotional encounters, the last being the most dramatic and most
lasting.........so much so that I wish we could all feel as I felt, and then
there would be no hate among any of the people of this world! I'd like to speak
to someone before I describe the many experiences I have felt. There have been
so many and of so many degrees..........but my most dramatic have been from my
husband, whom I adored.......and apparently loved me as much.
Was this experience
difficult to express in words?
The euphoria I felt after
particular encounters is beyond words to describe. The feelings and emotions
wrapped up in them is so beautiful and so very comforting.....
Did you hear the deceased or
hear something associated with the deceased?
Yes
Describe what
you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
His voice, his "thoughts" and his
emotions......as if they were spoken words.
Did the voice or
sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not
hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?
It was audible as if from a phone
conversation but I could sense that it was a "mind communication" privately sent
to me from my husband. I have had other such communications from other
relatives as well.
If you heard a
voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the
deceased made when they were alive?
His voice, which was most
magnificent and a very particular trait of his, was clear, joyous and loving.
Is there any
possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
NO!
Was there any
possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
NO!
Did you feel a touch or
experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
This description, extremely and
particularly moving I'd rather tell in detail when contacted by this interview.
Was the touch
familiar or unfamiliar?
Yes, familiar to my soul!
Was anything
communicated by the touch?
Immense, deep Love and joyful
emotions!
Is there any
possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
NO!
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes, With
my soul's eyes.........
How clearly did
the deceased appear?
The first time.....in a dream
state, I saw him transparent........then he immediately became as himself, and I
felt his touch.
How much of the
deceased did you see?
The first time.......all of him.
After, his face.....and then I have seen him with the emotions he has conveyed
to me.
Did the deceased
appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
At first as I first knew
him......and as I always saw him, young and strong and magnificent to me!
How healthy did
the deceased appear to be?
He looked the first time as if
still startled.......transparent. After he has become unbelievable healthy
like........hard to describe. You had to know him to understand. To me he
looked as wonderful as he did on our wedding day!
Is there any
possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
NO!
Did you smell a distinct
smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the experience
last?
Perhaps seconds but the feeling
was undeterminable by time........it has become everlasting.
Was the beginning and end of
the experience gradual or more sudden?
The most dramatic have been
sudden..........literally have taken my breath away!
Could you sense the emotions
or mood of the deceased?
Yes
He was euphoric and I felt
wished to share the feelings with me.
Did the deceased give you
information you did not previously know?
Yes, but some of the
information he tried to convey seemed to be related to his profession. With my
father, he conveyed emotions and feelings I didn't know he felt.......and he
pointed to documents that would have been very important to my stepmother after
his death.
How do you currently view the
reality of your experience?
Experience was definitely real
Please explain
why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:
Even if it was just
"emotional"..........such was my connection with my husband, I "recognized" him
by his emotions at the time of the encounters.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail your
feelings/emotions during the experience:
First surprised, then so very
pleased and then suddenly and emotionally taken to a higher feeling of love
never before experienced. It was as if you could sense the same feelings you
would have for someone you loved.......a reflection of what you both felt
intensified and at the same time!
Was there any emotional
healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
Feeling my husband's love. The
worst is realizing that I am not with him and wanting very much to be there with
him where he is.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe:
I've become more reserved,
more joyous when I speak of him, more pensive, more impatient to join him, and
yet, more resigned to what I must do in order to finish what we started in this
life..........the continuous support I must give our children as they enter into
their own life's journeys.
What other attitudes and
beliefs about your experience do you currently have?
I hope they happen again.........I want to be with my husband more than ever and
wait impatiently for the time when we can be reunited.
Did you have any changes
of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
Comforted but due to other
"family induced" circumstances.........I've felt the need to be comforted again
and again in order to cope with what has happened in my life since my husband
died.
Did the experience give you
any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.?
Yes, I've
become less "religious" but by far, more "spiritual".
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
Not
really.......just felt that it would happen somehow.
Did you observe or hear
anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
Yes
My son and I had a particular
"dream" the same night but as if we were looking at the "scene" from different
perspectives. Very dramatic.....particularly in the similar details.......he
told me of his dream and I was in awe of how similar it was to mine.
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
As if I could "die" right then and
there and not care at all about anything else except to be forever in that
euphoria.
Was the experience witnessed
or experienced by others?
No
Did you have any sense of
altered space or time?
Yes
There seems to be NO TIME to
speak of.......it simply IS!
Did you have a sense of
knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes
At the time of the experience
the feeling is of knowing and understanding it all, and yet unless you are
"there" the feeling is fleeting right after it stops......and you wish it to go
on forever!!!
Did you become aware of future
events?
No
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
Yes
Several......some small and
maybe silly to some, others dramatic. Will describe in detail if asked further
later.
Did you experience a
separation of your consciousness from your body?
Yes
At one time I felt as if I was
elevated and "separated" from my earth bound body. As my daughter would phrase
it.........."quite a trip"!
Did you
meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?
Yes
In the particular dreams that
followed my husband's death......I have seen several relatives, particularly my
father who so greatly loved my husband. Each in their own way, trying to convey
a message of comfort to me in what has been obviously a most grieving time in my
life.
Did you see a light?
Yes
I have seen and "heard"
different "lights".....these I would have to describe in detail. NO one has
asked me that before........thank you!
Did any part of your
experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described
above?
Yes
Mostly though these have
happened when I am alone in my thoughts or my deeply grieving times by myself.
Have you shared this
experience with others?
Yes
My children......some of it
they have understood for they too have had very dramatic "dreams" about their
beloved father. My husband was admired and loved by many in our family.
Have you shared this
experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
Tried once..........but no
response. Thus why I am so hesitant to give too many details at this time
unless further sought for my story.
Is there anything else you
would like to add regarding your experience?
I hope not only that I can add to
your research but that you too can give evidence to me that what I felt was not
only extraordinary but can be attested to.
Were there any associated
medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the experience, have
you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which
reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in your life have
a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual
event?
I remember
vaguely being very ill when I was very little and I do recall an encounter of
religious nature at that time. It has lingered with me since.
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
As
I mentioned before. I would like the opportunity to speak to someone at length
about my experiences because I have had many in my life, but none as dramatic
and moving as those I have felt since my husband died.
Please
offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Since my experiences are somewhat
more dramatic than others I have read about, I don't know how you could change
the questionnaire to accommodate only someone like me or the very few that might
have something similar to offer but are afraid of being considered somewhat
demented when they tell the details.