Eric's
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My Grandmother who I loved dearly, died my freshmen year of high school 2003-2004 was the school year she died in 2003 before thanksgiving. In 8th grade I started getting into drugs and after her death I started smoking marijuana quite heavily. It was a confusing time. I was looking for relief from my problems and just a typical rebellious teen! By my sophomore year of high school I was hanging out with a group of kids who I always got high with and we were high before, during, and after school most of the time. I was pissed off at everyone and not heading down a good path in life. I am Roman Catholic and was being confirmed. Usually in church, I sit with my family but when you are getting confirmed you sit with your confirmation class. What I am about to say is very important to the experience so please pay close attention. I was sitting in a group of people so there were people in all around me. If you are Roman Catholic and live in New England you know that people look straight forward and talking is very inappropriate.
Everyone was looking straight ahead when this happened. I was thinking to myself "There is no such thing as God" and all this other negative stuff when I heard my name whispered 3 times in my ear. I felt a weird air pressure change in my ear and it was neither hot nor cold but somewhat tickled. This freaked me out and I thought someone was screwing with me so I look at everyone around me in all directions but everyone was looking forward and no one had a smile on their face. I can't even say that everyone I was sitting next to knew my name. I wrote this off as an effect of all the drugs I was doing and did not really think about it until months later. It was indeed my grandmothers voice. I have a great memory for music and can listen to a song and then play it on the piano with in a matter of minutes, so if I can remember that, I can remember her voice. It was in my right ear which was facing the aisle. During my 2nd year in high school I would frequently run away from home and smoke a lot of weed. I was arrested a number of times and all around a wild kid growing up.
It was not until
towards the end of my sophomore year that I started to change and eventually
stopped hanging out with my old group of friends for a number of reasons. By my
junior year, being on my own instead of in a group of friends I was forced to
take a good look at myself. I did not become religious until I was a senior in
high school. Mainly because of this experience I became religious. I have seen
my Grandma in my dreams and on one occasion had a deep conversation with her
while holding her hand walking around a pond. There was birds in the center of
the pond and then the flock flew away. I looked at my grandmothers face but I
don't think she really wanted me looking at her, I saw her profile. She looked
neither young nor old but in better shape than when she was alive. I do not
remember what we talked about, mainly because I think she made it that way for
my own good for whatever reason. Usually I can remember every little detail of a
dream. But this one is missing the chunk on what we talked about. It was about
life I know that. I was looking forward as we talked. We were walking around the
pond. There was fluttering of wings all around. This dream happened in the
summer of 2008 when I was in a great deal of pain from a bad reaction from
medication and going through withdrawal. I remember all of my dreams since I was
a little kid and on some occasions they have predicted the future or gave me a
deep insight into life. My life has been quite hard and I have ADHD and
Depression and other learning disabilities, people can not tell this by talking
to me. I seem quite normal and cover it quite well.
Was this experience
difficult to express in words?
No
I can explain this
easily because it was a straight forward experience.
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
No
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
My grandmother
whispered my name in my ear 3 times.
Did
the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you,
or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated?
outside of me and there was a change of air pressure in my ear that was not hot
or cold but tingly.
If
you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound
the deceased made when they were alive?
It was exactly the
voice of my grandmother and she sounds no different in death than she did in
life.
Is
there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
If you are Roman
Catholic you know that people do not talk in church and it is wrong to do so
especially here in New England. Everyone was looking forward. I checked to see
if it was a prank and no one did this to me. It was very real and the people
around me didn't really know me much at all. So it was not like some buddy
pulling a joke.
Was
there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
You could make
that argument considering the drugs. But I don't believe that this was the case.
I was not high at the time.
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
I felt the air
pressure change in my ear and I held hands with her in a dream once.
Was
the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
In real life it was an
air change. In the dream I did feel her hand. It felt like a hand like it would
feel like when I was awake.
Was
anything communicated by the touch?
You could argue holding
someone's hand is a form of affection.
Is
there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
In the dream she was
the only one with me and in church there was no other logical source.
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes
In my dreams a few
times. Her face looks clay like and radiates light. She looks like she did in
life but in better condition. Her face looked neither young nor old.
How
clearly did the deceased appear?
In my dream solid. She
had a glow and her face looked healthy and much like us humans do.
How
much of the deceased did you see?
Just her face in the
dream. In life I only heard her voice.
Did
the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
She looked young and
old at the same time. Her face seemed clay like and glowed.
How
healthy did the deceased appear to be?
Very healthy. I only
knew her when she was old.
Is
there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
It was in my dream so
one could argue it was just my imagination.
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
What
smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell?
Not that I can
remember.
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
In my dream we were
just talking about life. I don't remember her being mad at all and when the
thing in church happened it seemed more playful in nature kind of like saying.
God is real.
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
In one dream I
had she was singing and playing the organ and I asked? When the hell did you
learn how to play piano? She just said "things are different in heaven!" and
then I woke up laughing.
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
Because, things like that just don't happen by coincidence and it is just to
real. I could see the argument against the dream thing but not the other thing!
I know what I heard and I know damn well that was my grandmother.
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
Yes
The dream was
dreamlike, the thing that happened in the day was just a regular day in the life
of a human being.
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
I was looking all
around me franticly and it freaked me out so much I did not confront it until
months later! I was so scared! I had no clue what happened!
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
It makes me feel
good that she is doing well and is watching over me. I became a believer in the
following years. However things got worse before they got better. Not because of
this experience though because of other things.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
I know for a fact there
is life after death. The worst part was it scared the shit out of me.
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes
Describe:
It made me
become religious and many other things which I basically covered.
Did you have
any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes
I went from atheist to truly Roman Catholic. I also decided later on to change
my life and quit drugs and start doing music again.
Did the experience
give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.?
Yes
my Grandmother was sending me a clear message that God does indeed exist. I have
become very religious and was quite the wild child growing up. I have had a
crazy life.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
I am going to make
one with people though!
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
No
one can verify this except myself. If you do not want to believe me I do not
care. If you want to judge me for using drugs back then, I still do not care. If
one thing has not changed about me from back then is I still don't give a crap
what you think about me or if you believe me or not!
What emotions did
you feel during the experience?
Afterwards I came to
realize it was indeed my grandmothers voice and thought it was quite cool. I
told my family a few years after it happened one at a time. Not in a group.
Was the experience
witnessed or experienced by others?
No
I was around other
people but only I heard the voice.
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
I was in my present
body. The other thing I was sleeping.
Did you meet or see
any other beings other than the deceased?
Yes
In one of my other
dreams I saw my other grandmother who died in 2008 and other relatives who died
and some I never met because they all died before I was born. They were sitting
around a table eating. This may have just been a random dream though. This was
separate than the pond dream which was just my grandmother.
Did you see a
light?
No
Did any part of
your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described
above?
No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes
They believe me. I told my closest family members and a few other people. My
brother was kind of atheist and I might have gotten him to change a little. At
least I hope.
Have you shared
this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything
else you would like to add regarding your experience?
Please believe in God
because God if very real or else this would not of happened.
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
Yes
I am going to regret
this because people will write this off as effects of drugs. I had done
hallucinogenic mushrooms the day before but they really did not work that well
and a lot of drugs were built up in my system but at the time I was completely
sober. I knew what happened to me was not an effect of any drugs because I know
what those are like! So please don't judge me!
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
The right answer
would be I have had many experiences on drug and they were quite out there. Not
like this though!
Did you ever in
your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other
spiritual event?
N0 comment
Right before
Christmas 2008 I almost took the wrong medication at night which could of
seriously injured me and I heard a voice in my head say "Look at what you are
taking" I had my hand in mouth at this point.
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
Please offer any
suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Why the hell are you
asking if people are liberal or what not? You should just ask straight up what
religion they are.