Dolly N ADC
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Experience description:

I was sleeping when the phone rang at 2:00 a.m. (in my dream).  I let the answering machine get it.  I heard the message as the caller left it.  It was Jose.  He said, 'Hi.  It's me.  Jose.  I know it's been a long time since I called you.  I have residence forms to fill out.  I don't have all the information I need.  I know you keep all the documents so I think you have what I need to finish filling out the forms.  I know these years have been hard for you.  Things will be better for you soon.  Please call me.  It's important.'  Then, when I got out of bed for the day (still in my dream), I went to listen to the answering machine more clearly.  There was a package by the phone, from Jose.  Inside was a coffee mug (his favorite drink).  It was white with red lettering and had a picture of a chocolate drop, like a Hershey's kiss, but in red.  Red is the color of ancestors; white is the color of The Divine.  The writing on the mug was the name of a private hospital in Portugal near where we lived in Oeiras; it listed all the services the hospital provides. I understood that this was some sort of message from my Ancestors and I recognized Jose now fits into the category of Milk Ancestor (someone who is not related by blood but who nurtures you).  I had no idea what it meant but I at least understood Jose had left me a kiss.  After looking at the mug, I pushed the 'play' button on the answering machine.  I heard a digital message say, 'The following message is likely a mis-dial or a wrong number.  It was placed from an unidentifiable (as opposed to unidentified) remote location.  If you would still like to hear the message, push 'continue'. ' I pushed 'continue' and there was no message, although the timer showed time running, and not that someone had disconnected the call.  (Still in my dream) I thought, 'Like ghosts who can be photographed but not video recorded.'  Then there was a knock on my door (still dreaming).  I opened the door and Jose was there.  He took me by the hand and we were immediately transported to an apartment building, walking up the stairs to our 4th floor apartment (4 being my power/lucky number).  We got into the apartment.  We sat in chairs opposite each other and, still holding my hand, he said, 'I want you to come back to Portugal with me.'  I asked him why.  He said, 'My phone bill is one month past due.'  I took that to mean he needs me in death just as he did in life, keeping in mind that I know we are soul mates (even though I don't feel it anymore either).  I have had a few spontaneous past-life regressions and know that Jose and I have been together before.  I know we will be together again after life and in future lives.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words?     No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?      No

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          Yes

           Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:   As already described, I heard his voice, he held my hand as we spoke together.

           Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?     This was a Dream Time experience while I was sleeping but yes, it seemed the voice was external to my body.

           If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     It sounded exactly like himself.

           Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No.

           Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   I was sleeping.

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?         Yes

 He held my hand.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Very familiar and comforting.

           Was anything communicated by the touch? Comfort.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No.

 Did you see the deceased?       Yes

 He looked exactly like himself...about 30 years ago, even before the time I met him but the him I saw in photos.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Extremely.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       His entire, clothed, body.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?           He appeared to be in his 40's instead of his age of 71.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            Extremely healthy.

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No.

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

 How long did the experience last?      Dream Time...who knows how long that was.

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?       It started with a phone ringing and ended more gently with him holding my hand and telling me he needed me.

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes

 He seemed peaceful, more tranquil than I'd ever known him to be.

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  He told me things will be better for me soon, after 4+ years of missing him terribly since our divorce (something he insisted on).

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   I am accustomed to working with energies that are not my own.  During our marriage, my dog used to take me Astral Traveling while I slept and my husband would watch over me, even though I had no idea I was doing anything but dreaming.  Through those experiences, his coaching and other Dream Time training, I've learned to discern the difference between ordinary dreams and Non-Ordinary/Otherworld realities.

           Was the experience dream like in any way?  Yes

 It occurred during Dream Time but it had the 'hardness' of Ordinary Reality.  It did not feel ethereal.  It felt solid.

 Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I felt peaceful and loved.

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

 After 4 years into the divorce I never wanted, I felt comforted to know that we were still bonded at the soul level.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?          The best was that he and I were together.  The worst was that it didn't last, and I woke up.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?      No     

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?     Uncertain

 There was no compact, but simply an understanding that my mother (my best friend) and I would stay connected after she passed.

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?          Confused...which is more a state of mind than emotions.  I felt frustrated that he didn't stay with me longer, and angry that we were not together the last 4 years of his life.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?          Uncertain

 During the Dream Time I was aware that he is dead and was startled that he was calling me 'from the grave'.

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         Yes

 Not during this experience, but with other experiences and under the coaching of my ex-husband (the deceased).

 Did you become aware of future events?      No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?   No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   No

 Did you see a light?        Yes

 When he knocked on the door and I opened it, he was back-lit by a very bright light, like a very bright sunrise.

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

 Have you shared this experience with others?       Yes    I shared with 2 people who also have had experiences with deceased loved ones.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?         No

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event? Yes 

I have had 3 near death experiences spaced throughout my life.  I've been involved in telepathic communication with animals for 20 years.  I've had training in shamanic practices and Reiki.  At one time or another I have had out of body experiences, several spiritual events.