Derry T's
ADC
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My father died suddenly. When my mother rang to tell me I drove to my parents house with my baby daughter and stayed there a few days. As I drove down to my mother's I had this strange feeling that Dad was with another sister in her car. When I reached the house i had a feeling that dad was floating around at ceiling level laughing with joy. It was a feeling - I didn't see anything. My sister was there she said that when she was driving over she felt that dad was in her car. Everyone else was crying but I couldn't because I was paying too much attention to his presence. When I went to bed I spoke to him and said something like "I just wanted you to know that I know you are there, Dad" out loud to him. I went to identify him at the morgue because everyone else was too upset. The feelings continued all the time.
The next day I drove home. In the car a presence came to me. Despite the fact that my hands were on the wheel I could feel the imprint of my father's hands in my hands a powerful energy came pouring through my body. It made me understand what was meant by the Holy Spirit. Holy is related to our word whole.
The energy was incredibly blissful, it was life in its purest and incredibly invigorating, it was the most powerful combination of love, forgiveness, compassion and resolution. It was as though all things, everything - good and bad - were completely resolved within one energy that containe all. The being that my father had become reminded me of Jesus and those pictures of him that have rays coming out of his hands and I have always noted these rays in pictures and sculptures of holy people since. I understood what was meant by becoming one with Jesus as it felt like dad had become one with this being of light and love. I understood how angels could be the messengers between God and people. It was heaven, but there was no hell - it could not exist.
It was the most powerful thing I have ever experienced. It was like in life we are really dead and in death there is real life.
The
experience lasted over an hour
Was this experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes
People think I am crazy and
just don't understand if I try to explain it - I don't think it is something you
really can explain perfectly - you have to experience it.
Did you hear the deceased or
hear something associated with the deceased?
No
Did you feel a touch or
experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes
Dad held both my hands
Was the touch
familiar or unfamiliar?
like nothing I had ever felt before
Was anything
communicated by the touch?
I copy from above: Despite the
fact that my hands were on the wheel I could feel the imprint of my father's
hands in my hands a powerful energy came pouring through my body. It made me
understand what was meant by the Holy Spirit. Holy is related to our word whole.
The energy was incredibly blissful, it was life in its purest and incredibly invigorating, it was the most powerful combination of love, forgiveness, compassion and resolution. It was as though all things, everything - good and bad - were completely resolved within one energy that containe all. The being that my father had become reminded me of Jesus and those pictures of him that have rays coming out of his hands and I have always noted these rays in pictures and sculptures of holy people since. I understood what was meant by becoming one with Jesus as it felt like dad had become one with this being of light and love. I understood how angels could be the messengers between God and people. It was heaven, but there was no hell - it could not exist.
It was the
most powerful thing I have ever experienced. It was like in life we are really
dead and in death there is real life.
Is there any
possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings
at the time of your experience?
no
Did you see the
deceased?
No
Did you smell a distinct
smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the experience
last?
over an hour
Was the beginning and end of
the experience gradual or more sudden?
I had been feeling this
love and compassion for a few days but it was very muted and in the background
compared to the experience in the car. The experience in the car came on very
suddenly but eventually ebbed away slowly - I was still high from it for days
Could you sense the emotions
or mood of the deceased?
Yes
He was one with that energy
Did the deceased give you
information you did not previously know?
Yes! apart from what was
described above - he communicated to me that my sister would be the next person
to get pregnant - as though he would be reborn in that baby.
My answer
to below about did I believe in ADC was maybe but I really didn't think about
it. You really needed a maybe option below. so 13, 14, maybe
How do you currently view the
reality of your experience?
Experience was definitely real
Please explain
why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:
Well it was a real experience -
now what it means is another question.
Was the
experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail your
feelings/emotions during the experience:
Already have above
Was there any emotional
healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
In the sense that it made it
impossible to be sad about dad
What was the best and worst
part of your experience?
The best part - that I had it. The
worst part - that I am not still having it.
Has your life changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
Describe:
it has
modified some of my relgious ideas
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I can't explain. No matter how hard life is it is there in the
background making me wonder.
Did
the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death,
afterlife, God, etc.?
No I
think I already have!
Death
Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
Yes
AFter
this experience I keep saying to my kids that I will try to come back to them.
But I am not sure if that is a compact.
Did
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes When a
different sister announced she was pregnant I felt - no this is wrong - it is my
other sister. Turned out that the sister who said she was pregnant was wrong and
the sister that my father communicated that would get pregnant next did. She
gave birth to a girl just over a year later.
What
emotions did you feel during the experience?
Already have
above
Was
the experience witnessed or experienced by others?
No
Did
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Uncertain
I was
experiencing another level of conciousness - I wasn't exactly watching my watch
Did
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
purpose?
Yes
Already have
Did
you become aware of future events?
Yes
already described
Did
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
My
meditation practice improved for a period of about seven years afterwards
Did
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
No
Did
you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?
Uncertain
Only
in the sense that Dad seemed to have become one with another being that was like
some sort of container and communicator of the energy
Did
you see a light?
No
But
somehow - I felt it
Did
any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location
described above?
No
I have
already explained multiple locations
Have
you shared this experience with others?
Yes Sometimes I meet someone who has had the same experience - they often
say they don't tell people (sometimes I am the only one they have ever told)
because they are afraid of being thought mad. I don't feel right with christians
though. I feel like somehow the message of Jesus got manipulated by the
christian religion. I cannot see how there could be a hell because heaven
somehow includes hell but at the same time makes hell bliss. It is hard to
explain - it is total forgiveness and compassion. But I feel as though the
concept of heaven and hell being separate makes many christians energies like
swiss cheese and they are just not right - like the concept of hell as a place
of punishment kills compassion and forgiveness. Everyone else just think I am
mad, but I still talk about it and say it is like an nde's and their are lots of
books and documentaries on it to try to make it sound as scientific as something
so unscientific can sound. And resign myself to being thought a loop. I don't
know. Maybe it is just an interim stage and there is another experience beyond
it. I can't say. But I believe it is the basic energy of the universe - no,
correction - I know it is the basic energy of the universe. My grandfather used
to right a lot of religious stuff - i really think from what he wrote he may
have known. He belonged to a christian religion that didn't believe in hell. I
never knew him and my father didn't follow his religion so he wasn't an
influence in my life. I just had read a few things he said and thought he was
nice but a bit loopy. He would say "Love Governs All" and about "Perfect Love"
and stuff like that - came from Christian Science. I think they were onto
something. But Buddhism has enough to explain and not contradict what I
experienced.
Have
you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or
web site?
No
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Yes
Meditation - Vipassana. A meditation that observes the sensations in the body
with equanimity
Did
you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or
other spiritual event?
Yes
No
NDE or OBE but some precognition and some visions that really aren't the same
thing
Did
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes