Experience description 3/9/14:  

It was about 6 years after my Mom passed and near Christmas.  My kids are grown and live away from home and my husband was working out of town, so I was home alone.  One thing that is important is that my bedroom is at the very end of the hall and the bedroom door is at the very end of the hall, not off to the side. I was getting ready for bed and thought it had been a fairly long time since I had a dream or vision of my Mom and even though she is probably "busy" I would really like to see her. That's all I thought, just that it would be nice to see her again for a moment. I got in the bed and just barely closed my eyes when I heard someone walking down the hall! I told myself to get up! someone is coming down the hall and you're here alone!! but I couldn't move. I must have fallen asleep without realizing it.  I kept trying to jump up and finally I jumped up out of bed, went to my bedroom door and opened it. The hallway I saw when I opened the door was not my hallway.  It was very long, had tall ceilings, no windows that I noticed, all white, and brightly lit. Far away down this hall I see someone walking toward me. Is it my Mom? Looks like her wearing her favorite coat. Yes! It is my Mom! so I run up to her and just fall on my knees sobbing and telling her how sorry I am for everything. (I fell asleep the night she died, so she died alone and I can't forgive myself for it.) She never said a word and looked like she was too busy to listen or didn't want to hear it.  I woke up and was amazed because I never realized I had fallen asleep. I am glad I got to see my Mom and tell her I am sorry but it does hurt that she never speaks or even smiles at me. I have had other ADCs which I will write about. But, the reason I want to tell this one is the Hallway! I keep hearing about this kind of hallway when I read NDEs so this hallway seems very real to me.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   No                                   

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   Yes  

Describe where and how you were touched:     I fell on my knees sobbing and I was clutching my Mom around her legs.

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   familiar. It was her and her favorite coat.  

Was anything communicated by the touch?   no, only that when i fell to my knees sobbing and apologizing it seemed to be the beginning of the end of the communication. I wish I would have just talked like a normal person.

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   absolutely not. I thought I was awake and hearing someone walk down the hall toward my bedroom. I was very afraid that someone had broken in.

Did you see the deceased?   Yes    Looked exactly the same as in life except healthier looking.

How clearly did the deceased appear?   totally solid and I could feel my Moms legs and her long coat.

How much of the deceased did you see?    I saw the entire person.

Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   She looked about the same age, only not sick.

How healthy did the deceased appear to be?    same as above. My Mom looked about the same age, only healthy looking.

Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?    none whatsoever.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?        Her mood seemed like she was either very busy and didn't want to be bothered or just disgusted. I am not really sure - it could be just my perception of it.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   She never said a word and it hurts sometimes when I think of it.  Then I'd like to think it was "just a dream" but I know in my soul it was not "just a dream".

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was probably real    It seems real because there was no passing of time from the time I got in the bed and closed my eyes to hearing someone walking down the hall. Usually I know that I have fallen asleep but this time it happened immediately upon closing my eyes.

Was the experience dream like in any way?    Yes    The only way it was dreamlike is when I woke up and realized I had been asleep and dreaming.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?    Uncertain    Maybe a little bit. It gets easier to bear but I don't think I'll ever fully forgive myself.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    best: seeing my Mom.

worst: she didn't seem glad to see me, more like annoyed.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    No        

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?    No   

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    The spiritual connection of the Hallway, the long, tall ceilinged, bright white hallway that keeps coming up in NDEs on NDERF site.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       Yes    altered space. My hallway was not there. There was a completely different hallway when I opened the door.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        No    I felt like my same foolish self.

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    Yes    After it happened I realized that when I was finally able to jump up out of bed, my spirit jumped up but my body was still on the bed. I didn't notice it until after it all happened. I didn't look back at the bed because I was intent on looking down the hall.

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No            just the bright white light that the hall was lit up with.

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    I think they listen politely and then dismiss it.  The only person who really believes it is my daughter.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No        

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes    I have had a few STEs and even though I fell asleep when my Mom died, she did enter my dream and say goodbye. She was happy then. I wrote about it on Your Spiritual Experiences, the title is 'Exit Stage Left' by Skylark.