Deidre
A's
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Experience #2: When
I was 19 years old, I was way at college living with my step grandmother and
aunts in New York, when I had a dream about my cousin. He was the same age as
I, and we grew up very close like brother and sister. In the dream, we were in
a Nightclub and his mother showed up. Then some guys came in and shot him
in front of his mom, killing him. I remember trying to get her to leave before
it happened and kept saying to myself that his mother is going to see him get
killed. When I awoke, I remembered the dream and felt weird, because while we
were close, I didn't ever remember dreaming about him.
Well two days later, my father calls to tell me that he got shot in his mother's
car and had died. I didn't believe that he was really dead until I got to
Baltimore and saw him for myself. Anyway, this was the first significant
tragedy in my life. I took his death hard, we all did. Well after a
couple of weeks of constantly thinking about him , one night while I was asleep,
he came to me in my dreams. I remember him telling me that I could stop crying
for him, that he was o.k. He kept saying to me that he was o.k., don't worry
myself about him. I felt such a relief when I awoke the next day, and it really
helped me deal with his death, because he was in no pain and I knew he was in
heaven. I have no doubt that it was him coming to set my mind at ease.
Background Information:
Length of time between death of deceased and
your experience:
6 years
Degree of bereavement for deceased immediately prior to the
experience (choose best response):
No sadness and/or grief feelings
Degree of alertness immediately prior to experience (choose best response):
Asleep
After your experience, did you consider the contents of your experience: Wonderful
Your age at time of experience: 8
Have
you had multiple experiences?
Yes
, 2
Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the
deceased?
Yes
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
We had a full conversation,
I don't remember what we talked about, but we talked.
Did the
voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or
did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated?
I understood the
conversation, it was communicated outside of me.
If you
heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the
deceased made when they were alive?
I don't remember how he talked
when he was alive, I was only 2.
Is
there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
Was
there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
no
Did you feel
a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
Yes i sat right next to him
on the bed. My leg was next to his.
Was the
touch familiar or unfamiliar?
familiar
Was anything communicated by
the touch?
no
Is there any possibility what
you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of
your experience?
no
Did you see the
deceased?
Yes
I don't remember his face, just his suit and his hat, but I knew it was my
grandfather. I only knew of pictured of him before he died and brief memories
from when I was two years old.
How clearly did the deceased
appear (i.e. solid, somewhat transparent, etc.):
very clearly
How much of the deceased did
you see (i.e. all or part of the deceased):
all of him
Did the deceased appear or not
appear to be the age at which they died?
he just seemed like an old man,
which he was when he died
How healthy did the deceased
appear to be? Did they have any infirmities before they died which might have
been apparent or not apparent?
he was very healthy looking
Is there any possibility what
you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of
your experience?
no
Did you
smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the
deceased?
No
How long did
the experience last?
It seemed like a long time, but it
was probably only 5 ot 10 minutes.
Was the
beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
It was gradual. He began to
disappear but I was not afraid. After he left, i climbed back into bed and had
a very peaceful sleep.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes, he seemed very kind and comforting, but serious about what he was telling me.
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as
real or not real:
It was so clear. I don't
remember a lot of things from the age of 8, but this experience has been with me
since then. I remember so many details of it that I know it happened
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have? Sacred
Did the
experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife,
God, etc.?
Yes
What emotions did you experience following your experience? I felt peaceful but maybe because I was a child, the experience did not seem foreign to me. Just very matter of fact that it happened and it didn't seem very strange at all.
Did you have
any sense of altered space or time?
Yes
It seemed that we talked for a very long time, but we couldn't have because I
was so rested the next morning. Also, we were not whispering at all, talking in
very normal tones. but I knew no-one in the house would wake up from hearing the
conversation, because it was only between us.
Did you ever
in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other
spiritual event?
Yes Well, when I was a child
I would have these experiences sometimes where I would catch a glimpse of myself
in the mirror, but it was as if I were watching someone else, as if I were
outside of the situation watching it through someone else's eyes. I don't know
how to explain it other than that, but I would stand in the mirror for a long
time and feel really sad watching the whole scene play out.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes