Connie S's
ADC
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In my dream, it was
space, no walls , you couldn't see where it began or ended. It was pitch black
but there was a bright light shining from above on my father. He was sitting
down and we were separated by the same thing you would see in a prison when
visiting. There was a window and a chair for me to sit in so I could "visit"
with him. The weird thing is you could have stood up and walked 3 feet to the
left or right an went around the visiting window, there was no walls. So I
remember he was talking to me, and smiling with such a loving smile. I remember
his mouth moving and facial expressions, and we were laughing towards the end. I
can't remember what he was telling me. this may sound weird, but I don't think I
was meant to, he might of been telling me about the future and some things that
were going to happen and wanted me to know that Ill be alright and would pull
through. And that's it, if there was more, I guess I don't remember.
Was this
experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense
an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing,
feeling or smelling them?
No
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?
No
Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:
I just remember
us talking and smiling and laughing. All facial expressions, I mean I probably
heard him in my dream, but don't remember hearing him when I woke up.
Did
the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you,
or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was
communicated? I
don't remember hearing sound or what he said I just remember his mouth moving
and facial expressions. I do believe in the dream I heard him. I remember having
a sense of peace.
Is
there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No
Was
there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?
no
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?
No
Did you see the
deceased?
I cold only see his
face and neck and shoulders, he looked the same, except happier. solid
How
clearly did the deceased appear?
Solid, as if he were
real.
How
much of the deceased did you see?
Face, neck and
shoulders
Did
the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?
Yes, he looked the
same age.
How
healthy did the deceased appear to be?
In good shape, healthy.
Is
there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the
surroundings at the time of your experience?
No
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the
experience last?
Could have been
2 minutes or 2 hours, dreams are weird. sudden
Was the beginning
and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
Sudden, I had
never dreamt about him before or after that experience.
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
serious, calm,
happy, at peace.
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?
I thinks so, but
do not think I was meant to remember.
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
Its just something you fell in your heart and soul. Not to mention its quite a
coinceadince
Was
the experience dream like in any way?
Uncertain
A little bit, the
pitch black and the light on my father was strange.
Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the
experience:
Happy, I don't think I
really understood in the dream what was going on until I woke up and got the
phone call
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience?
I wasn't at the
point of my life that anything made any sense. I was a kid. I used my Fathers
death as a handicap to use drugs.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience?
There was no worst
part, except for loosing my Father, he was only 43
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes A better outlook on life, but not until many years later, but I
know this plays a big part inn it. I OD on Heroin several times, once my heart
stopped, I shouldn't even be here.
Did the experience
give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.?
Yes
Love and Life is amazing, it brings people together even after death. I don't
take death sobadly now, though it is sad. Its nice to know that death is just
another door opening up for us.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
N0 comment
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later?
Uncertain
What emotions
did you feel during the experience?
Sadness, but in a way
even though I didn't understand the importance of the dream during it, I feel as
though I got to say goodbye.
Was the experience
witnessed or experienced by others?
Yes
My boyfriend at the
time was there, and when I woke up I had told him about the dream and the
details of it. He was also there for the phone call about my Fathers death ,
which occured not to long after.
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time?
Yes
The space was pitch
black couldn't see where it began or ended. The light was covering my Father and
"visiting window" and me once I got close to sit and talk.
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Uncertain
Did you become
aware of future events?
Uncertain
I can't remember
what he told me once I woke up. I remember his facial expressions and his mouth
moving while speaking and him smiling.
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?
Yes
Yes, when I was
younger I used to see objects move, my family still doesn't believe me.
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain
Did you meet or see
any other beings other than the deceased?
No
Did you see a
light?
Yes
It was shining on
him, and I stepped into it to talk to him.
Did any part of
your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described
above?
No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes
Most believe me, or have their own stories to tell.
Have you shared
this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Is there anything
else you would like to add regarding your experience?
I wish he would come
visit me again, though I know I will see him again one day.
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience?
Yes
Unfortunately, I was
adopted and had a very hard life as a very young little girl. When I got older
my Father was in and out of my life and prison, he and my Biological Mother were
very hard on drugs. So when I was about 19 my dad had just gotten out of prison
and inherited money when my Grandpa died, and therefore bought a junkyard in St.
Augustine IL. So I went to live there with him. Things went sour, so I left and
hadn't talk to him since. Mean while I started using Heroin, which was a battle
for me for 7 yrs. I am now clean.
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did you ever in
your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other
spiritual event?
Yes
I OD 3 times, The
third time my heart stopped.
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience?
Yes
I had to repeat much
of it, but that's OK it just shows my certainty.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. Yes, you can ask how our relationships were with the deceased before they passed