I was lying down on my sofa.  The last of my friends and caregivers from he previous week, since my mother died, had  left that morning. My husband and gone to work and  My 3 and 5 year old boys were at Christmas Camp at the preschool they attended.  I was so exhausted and sad I decided to lie down and take nap.  I believe I did sleep for a few hours. 

I woke up because I thought I heard someone walking around the house,  I called my husband's name and got no answer,  I called my children's names and no answer.  I decided I would try to go back to sleep.  I may have dozed but I awoke because again I felt that someone was nearby moving about the house.  I thought my husband was leaning over the back of the couch looking at me.  I wondered why he did not reach out to stroke my back or offer any words. I craned my neck to look behind me to see him but he was not there.

Again, I was exhausted and wanted to go back to sleep so I turned my neck back around to lay my head on my pillow and when I turned around my mother was standing there right in front of me.  She was whole and beautiful and looked like she was the prettiest age I can remember her, in her 30's probably.  She suffered through 8 years of cancer and treatment and was frail and gaunt when she died.  She was just standing there and she told me everything is going to be ok.  I did not move or say anything,  I just stared at her.  'It's going to be ok,' she said over and over.  It was like she was touching me in a comforting way (stroking my head and back) but she wasn't.  She just stood there.  She said to go back to sleep so I did.  It was the most beautiful experience of my life and I have taken an enormous amount of comfort from that visit.  I know she was there,  it was absolutely completely real.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   Yes   

Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:     Everything was going to be ok.  She was speaking it to me.        

If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?     Same voice as the deceased     

Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No.  It was completely quiet calm and peaceful.  

Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?   No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   Uncertain  

Describe where and how you were touched:     I felt as though she was touching me but she was not.

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Familiar      

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?   No       She was radiant and beautiful like she was in her 30's.

How clearly did the deceased appear?   Solid, like she was completely there.

How much of the deceased did you see?    All of her

Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   She died at 61 years and appeared to be in her 30's when I saw her

How healthy did the deceased appear to be?    Very healthy unlike her state at death

Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?    No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Yes     Positive, happy and content unlike her state in the last 10-15 years of her life

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was definitely real    It is impossible to say because how can you say if any experience is real. If my experience seeing my mother after her death was not real then maybe I am not really typing on my computer right now.  It was as real as it gets,

Was the experience dream like in any way?    Uncertain    I have wondered because of the fact that I was napping if it could have been a dream but I have been in the same state before and since and have not had anyone appear in front me with a message.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?    Yes    Absolute positive healing.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    Best part was her telling me everything was ok,  it gave me peace that she was ok.

Worst part has been worrying that I am going to forget and wishing it would happen again.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    No                A stronger faith in God.  I do believe that there is a Heaven where we will go and see our loved ones again.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    Yes    It made me believe that there is an afterlife which gives me great comfort,

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No         

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       No   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        No   

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No   

Did you see a light?    No   

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    I have shared it with a number of people.  I don't think they understand and don't expect that anyone who has not experienced this could even begin to understand it.  I think they mostly accept it as true.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No                

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      No