Experience Description

My Mum had a massive stroke. I signed her end-of-life consent. The stroke left her brain-damaged beyond repair and body spastic with her head tilted back. She had a strong physiological will to live and continued in a state of unconsciousness for two days. A few hours before she died, I was sitting a few feet from her. I told her that it was O.K. to go and that I loved her very much. I was filled with the most incredible flood of love and complete reassurance. The feeling went from my toes and continued upwards. I've never felt such a thing ever before or after.

An hour before her death, it was as if two comets shot into the room at lightening speed from the top corner of the private room and straight into her chest. It signalled the presence of my two Aunts. They had come to tell her to stop fighting and to let go. Mum told them that she wasn't going unless a part of her stayed within me. The same two comets or speed-of-light flashes shot back out of her chest, one after the other and through the same corner of the room. A peace filled the room. Mum died shortly thereafter, but I knew my life was different from then on. I have an unfaltering faith in life after death now.

A few years earlier, Mum and I had watched Forest Gump. The white feather at the end made us cry. Mum said to me, 'I will send you feathers when I'm gone.' After her death she did send me white feathers. I can think of Mum, then a real feather appears. I've had three conversations with her since she passed 7 years ago. I have asked her each time, what is it like on the other side. She tells me that she cannot explain it because it is nothing that I could possibly understand. She likens it to joining an infinite number of other souls to being like an engine gaining momentum and power to fuel and improve the Universe.

That's it basically. I witnessed the passing of my Mother. I'm the one who experienced the experience near her death.


Background Information:

Gender: Male

Date NDE Occurred: 31st October 2011

NDE Elements:

At the time of your experience, was there an associated life-threatening event? Yes I was an Observer. Other: My mother was near death.

How do you consider the content of your experience? Entirely pleasant

Did you feel separated from your body? Yes No

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal. Pure clarity.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? After being filled with her love.

Were your thoughts speeded up? No

Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No

Were your senses More vivid than usual? Incredibly more vivid

Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. unearthly.

Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. Insensitive to external noise.

Did you seem to be aware of things going on elsewhere, as if by ESP? Yes, but the facts have not been checked out

Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No

Did you see any beings in your experience? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Yes Two Aunts.

Did you see, or feel surrounded by, a brilliant light? A light clearly of mystical or other-worldly origin

Did you see an unearthly light? Yes From my aunts.

Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No

What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt peace, reassurance and Happiness.

Did you have a feeling of peace or pleasantness? Incredible peace or pleasantness

Did you have a feeling of joy? Incredible joy

Did you feel a sense of harmony or unity with the universe? I felt no longer in conflict with nature

Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others

Did scenes from your past come back to you? No

Did scenes from the future come to you? No

Did you come to a border or point of no return? No

God, Spiritual and Religion:

What was your religion prior to your experience? Christian- Catholic Lapsed and towards Atheism

Have your religious practices changed since your experience? No

What is your religion now? Other faiths- New age. I now know there is something, but it's not identifiable as a faith on earth.

Did your experience include features consistent with your earthly beliefs? Content that was entirely not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience. I didn't really believe in life after death

Did you have a change in your values and beliefs because of your experience? Uncertain I have a habit of just living and not to be preoccupied with what happens when I die.

Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin

Did you see deceased or religious spirits? No

Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No

During your experience, did you gain information about premortal existence? No

During your experience, did you gain information about universal connection or oneness? Yes

During your experience, did you gain information about the existence of God? No

Concerning our Earthly lives other than Religion:

During your experience, did you gain special knowledge or information about your purpose? No

During your experience, did you gain information about the meaning of life? No

During your experience, did you gain information about an afterlife? An afterlife definitely exists. I was in the presence of my Aunts and had ESP communication with my Mother

Did you gain information about how to live our lives? Yes Everything's alright.

During your experience, did you gain information about life's difficulties, challenges and hardships? No

During your experience, did you gain information about love? Yes loving feelings

What life changes occurred in your life after your experience? Moderate changes in my life

Have your relationships changed specifically because of your experience? No

After the NDE:

Was the experience difficult to express in words? No

How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience.

Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Uncertain I've always been intuitive.

Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? From doubt to certainty, worry to peace.

Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes My partner soon after. Then I shared with aA couple of people thereafter.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No

What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened? Experience was definitely rea.l I viewed it as positive.

What do you believe about the reality of your experience now? Experience was definitely real. The experience had never happened before.

At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No