First Experience:  Both of my daughters (age 20 and 24) passed instantly from head-on auto accident.  They had left my place of business at around 12:30 pm. and were traveling back to Santa Cruz, where the sisters both lived.  The accident occurred around 5:00 p.m...around this time I was in conference with a client, and the room suddenly shifted and I felt extremely lightheaded...vision pixilized then immediately returned to normal.  I thought I was experiencing some faintness, although I did not at the time understand the cause.   I learned of the accident at approximately 2:00 am the following morning.  The car exploded on impact and their bodies were consumed by fire.

The latest significant incident occurred after a fundraiser for the charitable organization formed in their honor and memory.   The fundraiser was a wonderful event with much harmony and good energy by all those participating even those who did not know the sisters.  Two nights later, my closest friend (aunt to the sisters) and I were sitting in my kitchen talking about whether to have another such benefit in the same year.  Suddenly, my friend who has been skeptical about metaphysical theories in the past, saw a small, slightly rectangular shaped light darting about my head and the kitchen wall behind me.

I did not see the light but felt a shift in the energy around the room.  My friend watched in amazement as this light hovered over my head...when I reached out to touch it, although I couldn't see it I felt a warm sensation in the middle of my right palm.   After approximately 15 minutes, the light started to fade and darted away, leaving a slight trail.  During the light's "visit" two words spontaneously uttered from my mouth..."do it again," and "rainbow".   When the light faded away, my friend was in ecstasy...she left the room and when she did, I began to wonder if she was seeing something...suddenly the overhead light in the room started blinking.  My friend had a sensation of tremendous well-being and was crying and laughing at the experience.

Was this experience difficult to express in words? 

Yes

skepticism primarily; also lack of vocabulary to explain the profound

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?           

Yes

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?         

No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?           

Yes

Yes, when they passed; when the light appeared I felt tingling and a warm touch on my palm when I reached up to try and touch the light

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?  

unfamiliar

            Was anything communicated by the touch? 

during the light experience the words "do it, again" and "rainbow" spontaneously uttered from my mouth

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? 

no

Did you see the deceased?        

No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?     

Yes

How long did the experience last?       

at the moment of their passing, approximately 15 seconds; the light experience was at least 10-15 minutes long.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?        

first experience was sudden; the light experience began suddenly and gradually faded.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          

Uncertain

not when they passed...only later after I learned of the accident, a lot of things came out about their last visit, such as they may have had an unconscious premonition of their fate.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know? 

I was told by a clairvoyant that ancestors on a different vibration level needed healing...the clairvoyant did not know of my loss;  Another psychic channeler told me that my daughters said they were on a trip and would see me later.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          

Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:         

because I had to believe in so many things outside the dogma of traditional western religion.  I have had many affirmations by way of inspirational thought and artistic impulses.  Both of my daughters were artists, one a writer, the other a painter.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  

No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:          

After my friend saw the "light" darting about my head and above me, I felt giddy, happy and a little awed.  My friend was giddy, emotional and in shock as she has never had an experience such as that, although she has suffered other losses as well.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?          

Yes

Since my daughters' passing, I have felt an unknown source of fearlessness and strength.  Others have seen it as well.  Often times, words that come from my mouth are totally spontaneous and without any preconceived purpose.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     

there was no worst or best.  The feeling is incomparable to anything I've experienced thus far in my life.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?        

Yes                 Describe:           

cumulatively the above experiences, as well as many others found in the girls' writing and art, allows me the belief that time and space are limited to this level of form...when the body dies, the spirit is either reborn in the light, or incarnates again for further learning experiences to develop exclusive Christ consciousness

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     my daughters wait for me in the light

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?           

Yes     affirmations again.  The spirit does indeed survive the level of form that is life on this earth.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?       

No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         

No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           

peace, clarity, purpose

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          

Yes

First, witnessed by my employer; 2nd witnessed by close friend

Did you see a light?          

Uncertain, Light was observed by another...I felt rather than saw a light.

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     I have only shared the experience with others of like mind and beliefs

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?  

No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      

Please realize that the direct experiences with the spirits of my daughters (Raechel, Jackie and I, their mom were a triad during their life here); I have been an avid reader of metaphysics.

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?        

No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?              

Uncertain

Try as I may, I can't put into words some of the experiences of communication between my girls and me.