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Experience description:

Feeling warmth in my heart when talking to Her (after Her death) and asking for Her help.

White feathers in my path or drifting out of the sky.

Lights going on or off.

Radio turning on.

Coming to me in my dreams.

I also spoke several times to a psychic who told me things through Susie that anly Susie and I knew.

Every morning I say 'te amo mi amor' to Susie and the first thing the psychic said was 'Susie wants to say something to you Te amo mi amor'. The psychic did not even know that Spanish was Susie's main language.

My deceased brother and mother were also present and the psychic had no prior knowledge of them.

 Background Information:

 Date of experience:         Every day since shortly after Her death.

 Length of time between death of deceased and your experience: A few days.

 Was the date of the experience significant in any way?  no

 General geographic location of experience: Hudson County, NJ

 Details of location of experience and your activity at the time of experience:    Sleeping, driving, walking

 Degree of bereavement for deceased immediately prior to the experience:   Severe sadness and/or grief feelings

 Degree of alertness immediately prior to experience:            Fully alert

 After your experience, did you consider the contents of your experience:         Wonderful

 Have you had multiple experiences?  Yes    Almost every day since She died on 6/28/17.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words?           No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?          Yes

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?      Yes

 a warmth in my heart.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? familiar

            Was anything communicated by the touch?           you are never alone

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? no

 Did you see the deceased?       No

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?   No

 How long did the experience last?      several minutes

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?          gradual

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Uncertain

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  That I am never alone.

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:     Because especially through the psychic Susie expressed things only She and I knew.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?           No

 Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: warmth. Connection.

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?         Yes

 It's a gradual process but the grief is still there but lessens.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience? The feeling of connection as well as the ongoing grief that She is still here but I mis Her physicality so very much.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?          No     

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         Yes           We are connected still. Toward the end I was Her caretaker. Now I feel that She is my caretaker. We have switched roles.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?        Yes White feathers in my path or drifting from the sky when I needed Her.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Connection with Susie.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?        No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?           No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?           No

 Did you become aware of future events?      Yes

 Not with my experiences with Susie but other times I experienced my father's first heart attack as it was happening from a distance and other premonitions.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?        No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?         No

 Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?   Yes

 My mother and brother were there, through the psychic.

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?           No

 Have you shared this experience with others?       

Yes    Both skepticism and acceptance from different people.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?           Yes

 A few websites related to grieving, spirituality and ADC.

  Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?      There is no death, only transition.

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?          Yes 

premonitions of things about to occur or to be aware of.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?             Yes