I was drifting
off to sleep, feeling nostalgic and sad regarding the death of my brother who
passed away in 1994 of an illness. I was in that state just before slipping into
sleep, when this experience "washed" over me like a wave. I felt this
overwhelming powerful feeling of love that just filled me. I had never felt such
a feeling. At the same time the room filled with a fragrance that I knew
belonged to my father. My father's hygiene was always good, and he and his
bedroom always felled fresh and clean. It was a unique smell that I associated
with him. I have not experienced that smell since nor had I before my
experience. I have no idea how long this experience lasted, but I gradually came
to realize and know now, that my father exists somewhere, he loves me and is
proud of how I've conducted my life. At least he was at that point in time. I've
also concluded that somehow, my brother, must also exist somewhere.
Was this
experience difficult to express in words? Yes
The internal feeling
of overwhelming love.
Did you hear the
deceased or hear something associated with the deceased? No
Did you feel a
touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No
Did you see the
deceased? No
Did you smell a
distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?
Yes
What
smell, scent, fragrance or odor did you smell? A clean, fresh smell
that uniquely identified my father.
Was
the smell, scent, fragrance or odor familiar? Yes. It was my father's
unique smell.
Was
anything communicated by the smell? I think it was a way of
my father to communicate that the overwhelming feeling of love that filled me
was coming from him.
Is
there any possibility that the smell, scent, fragrance or odor was from any
other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
No.
How long did the
experience last?No sure, minutes
maybe.
Was the beginning
and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?It was gradual
as I slowly realized what had happened.
Could you sense the
emotions or mood of the deceased? Yes
Yes I experienced a
powerful feeling of being loved.
Did the deceased
give you information you did not previously know?My father, like
me, did not communicate love easily, although I never doubted that he loved me
as I loved him. I think he communicated to me the depth of his love for me. I
hope I did the same to him. It was a feeling of communion with my father.
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience? Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
The experience was real and time has not altered my conviction. It was too clear
and vivid. My memory of it is more real than some physical experiences I have
had in the past.
Was
the experience dream like in any way? No
Describe in
detail your feelings/emotions during the experience: Nothing during the
experience other than "soaking up" the feeling of love and realizing it was my
father's presence.
Was there any
emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes
Experiencing the
depth of love in a way not previously known.
What was the best
and worst part of your experience? The best part was the
powerful and unmistakable nature of the experience. The worst part was that it
ended.
Has your life
changed specifically as a result of your experience? YesDescribe:
I am convinced
that I am a spiritual being in a physical body. I continue to pursue
understanding of the mystery through meditation and study.
Did you have
any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?Yes
My attitude about the depth and power of love.
Did the experience
give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God,
etc.? Yes
That personal attributes can be used to communicate from the world of spirit.
I'm not sure if my visitation was really from an entity that was my father, or
God using the information to communicate something to me. I'm not sure, but
think it was my father in some form.
Death Compacts
are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies
first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a
compact?
No
Did you observe or
hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be
verified later? No What emotions
did you feel during the experience? Happiness, wonder.
Was the experience
witnessed or experienced by others? No
Did you have any
sense of altered space or time? Uncertain
Unsure of the
duration of the experience.
Did you have a
sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you become
aware of future events? No
Did you have any
psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did
not have prior to the experience?Uncertain
I've had paranormal
experiences all my life.
Did you experience
a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
Did you meet or see
any other beings other than the deceased? No
Did you see a
light? Yes
The room seemed to
lighten a little. It was dark at the time.
Did any part of
your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described
above? No
Have you shared
this experience with others?
Yes
Only a trusted aunt and my significant other. Their reaction was one of
acceptance and understanding.
Have you shared
this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?
No
Were there any
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
experience? No
Following the
experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or
substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did you ever in
your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other
spiritual event? Yes
I have had out of
body experiences while drifting off to sleep. My presence has been verified by
friends in remote locations.
Did the questions
asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
experience? Yes
Please offer any
suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. Questionnaire is well
thought out. My experience seemed to come, while I was open and sad about my
brother, emotionally vulnerable, and yet it was my father's presence that
appeared. Maybe a question that specifically addresses such a situation.