Basil J ADC
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Like every Sunday I had to get ready to go to Church with my mum and
sister. On this particular morning I came downstairs to hear a lot of commotion
as my sister was protesting about having to go to Church. She was complaining of
a headache and was still in her dressing gown. I remember standing in the living
room in front of a large mirror brushing my hair. I could see my sister in the
reflection sat on the sofa. All of a sudden she said to herself 'I am going to
die'. She said it in such a manner that suggested she had come to some form of
realization. Then, she said it again with horror whilst running into the kitchen
to mum. My mum said 'Don't be ridiculous. You better get ready for church now!'
As she was a teenager at the time this kind of drama was completely normal. Not
that she had ever claimed she was going to die before. I knew this was just
another attempt to not go to church as we both found it incredibly boring.
Either way, I hopped on my bike and rode to 5 minutes to church. Within moments
of me being sat down, a family friend came and grabbed me saying my sister was
in the hospital. I found this idea both hilarious for the lengths she was going
to to avoid church and a little unsettling for how much trouble she was going to
be in.
I went into the hospital intent on telling her to quit this charade and come
home. I was also fairly sure that I could probably get away with anything after
this stunt! I was shown to the intensive care room with absolutely no idea what
the phrase meant. I went inside and stood the other side of the doorway looking
for everyone. Within the same moment, in fact before my eyes even managed to
focus on my family, I was pulled upwards into the sky. It felt the exact same as
a rollercoaster but it was only for a microsecond. I next found myself in a
black space which I think might have been actual space as in just above the
earth. In the distance I could see a round ball glowing which I think was the
planet. I do not recollect any stars in this space, only blackness. Now I can
see myself in the third person. I was standing somewhere in complete confusion.
Next to me, on my left, was an older man with his hand on my left shoulder. I
could tell he was concerned and was worried for me. In front of both of us ,
about 1 meter away, was a thin vertical sheet of light particles. Just like when
the sun shines through a gap in window curtains and catches the dust so it looks
like some kind of wall. Remember I am seeing this from an external perspective
where myself and the person next to me are on my right hand side. Myself and the
other person where both facing the 9 o'clock position and my view is from the 5
- 6 o clock position.
I remember standing there in complete confusion and was in the middle of
thinking 'where the hell am I'! (those are the exact words which formed in my
mind). As I was thinking it my sister appeared floating in a horizontal position
on the other side of the light particle wall. My though continued 'and what the
hell are you doing here'!. Again this was exactly what I thought. Immediately my
sister responded 'I am gone now'. This is verbatim. I remember the shock and awe
realizing that she had heard my thoughts! The words hadn't even got as far as my
mouth yet and she knew my question! I said 'gone where... and when are you
coming back' with incredulity. Something like a thought then emerged in my mind
where I knew more information was coming and that it was important to tell me
straight whatever it was. She said 'and I am never coming back'. I then
understood that she was 'gone' and what that really meant. She started to drift
away into the distance encouraged by someone floating alongside her. As she
drifted away I felt rising horror and panic. I said in genuine anguish, or
thought really, 'but will I see you again'!? There was a momentary pause but
then she drifted back towards me and laughed to her new friend and said like it
was the silliest question in the world 'yes, you will see me again'. She was
smiling and laughing with her friend over this question in a way that reminds me
of when my 7 year old daughter reassures her 3 yr old brother that he will see
her again soon when she has to go back to her mums house. Of course he will see
her again! We will Skype tomorrow evening! We only get to see her every few
weeks as she lives with her mum. It was more like she was going to the next room
and I would see her again later in the day. I could tell that she was proud of
me being her little brother and I was loved like siblings love each other. The
other person I think was smiling like a teacher at a pupils little brother being
cute. I felt completely reassured and I knew that everything was going to be
O.K. I also thought I might be able to get some 'extra' information out of this
place regarding my death! I knew I was being cheeky but I asked 'will I be an
old man when I see you again'? I wanted to ask straight what age I would die at
but also knew that I would not be allowed to know that kind of detail. Again my
sister giggled and said as she was drifting off 'yes, you will be an old man'!
Then, I found myself stood in the intensive care unit with my family saying
'come over here, everything is alright'. I walked over to them in complete
shock. The problem was that I knew she was dead but apparently nobody else did.
My mum or dad made encouraged me to hold her hand, which I did, but I hated it
as I knew she was dead. Holding a dead persons hand is a memory I will never
forget. My next memory is being in a special waiting room trying my best not to
cry because I would have been to embarrassed to do it in front of people. After
this I remember being my mum, dad, and me being with the consultant who tried to
save her. He showed me an x-ray of her skull which depicted the massive
hemorrhage on her brain. I turned away as I did not want to see this frankly
gory picture. He said we had to go and say goodbye. I didn't want to go back to
a dead body and so I didn't want to. My dad to my mum that it is probably
important for me to but she said no and that they would deal with any fallout.
That's it really except I would like to add that many years later I had a
strange dream where I found myself stood in a small circle made of knee high
picket fences. This was on a grassy hillside and around me there were many more
identical circles with other people stood in them. Next to me was my Granddad.
He put his hand on my shoulder, and with a concerned look on his face, pointed
into the distance and I realized that I had thought 'but where is my sister'? I
looked where he was pointing and I saw a city that looked like somewhere in
Asia; tall skyscrapers, dramatic steep hillsides, waterfronts etc. I understood
that he was telling me she was fine, she was thinking about me, but that she
wasn't allowed to meet me yet. I had this dream whilst on holiday about 10 years
later. I walked into my house and, bizarrely, said to my dad 'so who died'? to
which he replied 'your granddad'. It was then that I remembered the dream and
told my dad that I already knew. The truth is I didn't know explicitly, it was
more of a feeling.
At the time
of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?
No
At what time during the
experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and alertness?
I felt no different than I ever felt. I was
completely normal.
How did your highest level
of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
everyday consciousness and alertness?
Normal
consciousness and alertness
It was
the same
Please
compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
No different except for the awkward fact of seeing myself from an external point
of view.
Please
compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had
immediately prior to the time of the experience.
No sound as we communicated by thoughts.
Did you see
or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your
consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
No
What emotions did you feel
during the experience?
Nothing particular.
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?
No
Did you see an unearthly
light?
No
Did
you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable
voice?
No
Did you encounter or
become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by
name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)?
No
Did
you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?
Yes
One was obviously my sister. She was
accompanied by someone unknown to me. I was also accompanied by someone unknown
to me. Interestingly, I have a mild feeling it was my mums dad who died before I
was born. But I am not really sure.
Did
you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?
No
Did
you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?
Some unfamiliar and strange place
It was a black space
and felt no different that standing in a black room. The Earth was possibly in
the backdrop.
Did time seem
to speed up or slow down?
No
Did
you suddenly seem to understand everything?
No
Did you reach a boundary
or limiting physical structure?
Yes
A thin wall of light particles.
Did
you come to a border or point of no return?
No
Did scenes from the
future come to you?
No
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness
suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly
life (“life after death”)?
Yes
Yes, death is not important.
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God
or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist?
No
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you
either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime?
No
During
your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a
mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s
meaning or purpose?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s
difficulties, challenges, or hardships?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love?
No
During your experience,
did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not
shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives?
No
Did you have a sense of
knowing special knowledge or purpose?
No
What occurred during your
experience included:
Content that was entirely consistent with the
beliefs you had at the time of your experience
I had no concept of death and that was what I got; a black void.
How accurately do you
remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around
the time of the experience?
I remember the experience more accurately than
other life events that occurred around the time of th
It is the most prominent memory of my childhood. I remember with incredible
detail.
Discuss any changes
that might have occurred in your life after your experience:
I have been interested in Buddhism since a teenager
but I cannot connect that directly to my NDE experience.
My
experience directly resulted in:
Unknown
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that
occurred as a result of the experience?
No
Do you
have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that
you did not have before the experience?
No
Have you ever shared this experience with others?
Yes
I told my partner about 3 months ago,
burst into tears then laughed saying this is why I don't talk about my sisters
death.
Did you have any knowledge
of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
No
What did you believe about
the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real
It was as real as anything else. At such a
young age I didn't know the significance of such an experience. I never told my
mum and dad about it. I really want to but I don't want to bring all that up.
What do you believe about
the reality of your experience at the current time:
Experience was definitely real
Most importantly for me I remember the
horror of having to hold a dead persons hand! Without this element I may have
been likely to dismiss the whole memory as the brain trying to protect itself
from trauma.
Have your relationships
changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Uncertain
I was 12! i have no idea.
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
No
At
any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?
No
Did
the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and
comprehensively describe your experience?
Yes