Barbara M ADC 2535
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Experience description:

I thought I was awake as I could see the bedroom door on my right, the window and curtains on my left, and the shadow on the ceiling thrown there by my night-light shining up around a chair. Suddenly a small figure all dressed in white appeared in the doorway. It could have been a tall child or a small adult. “There’s someone here to see you”, he/she said, and stepped back out of sight. Then my husband came through the door. I was surprised to see that it was not the white-haired, white-beaded husband of his last 30 years. He was much younger and slimmer...as he had looked years ago. He walked across the foot of the bed and up the side. Some part of me got out of bed and put my arms around him. We stood there holding each other for a few minutes? seconds? Then I was aware I was still lying in bed, and he was gone. He said nothing. I said nothing. The feeling of comfort was indescribable.

 Was this experience difficult to express in words?     No

 Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?          No

 Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?       Yes

           Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it and what was communicated:          The white figure spoke to me. It was very clear. “There’s someone here to see you”, he/she said.

           Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?          The voice came from the white  figure. I heard it clearly.. I sensed it was friendly and loving.

           If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar from the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?    It was not my husband’s voice.

           Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.

           Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?       No.

 Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?       Yes

 We put our arms around each other.

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar? Very familiar. We often hugged this way...my face to his chest since he was 6’ tall, I was 5’ tall!

           Was anything communicated by the touch? I felt comforted.

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.

 Did you see the deceased?       Yes

 Ron had white hair and a white beard. He was somewhat ‘paunchy’. When he was ushered into my bedroom he looked about 30 years younger...hair and beard were brown, and he was slim.

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            Since it was not bright in the bedroom, with only the early morning light and the night-light still shining, it seemed like he was in shadow. But not transparent.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       His legs were hidden as he walked past the foot of the bed. The rest of him was fully visible.

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?   As I wrote above, he appeared to be about 30 years younger...as I remembered him at that age.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?           The word that comes to mind is “restored”. Just before he died very suddenly of colon cancer, he had undergone a knee replacement, and was not walking well yet. When he came that morning, he was walking well...no limp!

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience? No.

 Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased? No

 How long did the experience last?      Seconds? Minutes? Not long.

 Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?      It was quite sudden.

 Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?          Yes

 I felt, a great sense of love, of comfort, of caring.

 Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?          No info.

 How do you currently view the reality of your experience?          Experience was definitely real

           Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:   I have no way of explaining my experience other than that it was real. I felt strongly that Ron was coming to let me know he was OK, and to see that I was OK. When it was over, there was no feeling of waking up. I felt I had been almost completely awake. My reaction was “Wow! What was that all about?” And  “Who or what was the small white figure?”

           Was the experience dream like in any way?  No          

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:  I was in awe, I think, and curious. I was SO happy to see Ron, and wanted to hold onto him longer. When he just dissolved, I was left feeling quiet, comforted, cared for, but so surprised that I had seemed to get out of bed....because I couldn’t have done it.

 Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience? Yes

 Although I was still grieving, and will miss him terribly till the day I die, I know he will come and get me when that time comes.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?     The best part was that it happened. The worst part? I wished it had lasted longer.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No     

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?

There is so much to life and dying that we don’t understand...and are not meant to understand.       

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes    Perhaps more a reaffirmation of beliefs rather than a change. I believe more strongly than ever that the spirit does go on.

 Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?         Yes    The body may die, but the spirit lives on. When our human experience is over, the next experience waits for us. I think as we pass from one to the next, the period of change blurs a bit, allowing one to step back and forth a little till one is firmly grounded in the next.

 Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?         No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?         No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?         I was comforted, and felt much less alone.

 Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?          No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?         No

 Did you become aware of future events?      No

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?  Yes

 Perhaps when some part of me got out of bed and stood hugging Ron. Physically, at that period of my recovery from hip surgery, I could not have done that. I felt it was my spirit that connected with him.
Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?        Yes

 As I wrote, a small white figure appeared in the doorway first. I don’t know who or what it was. The words spoken were “There’s someone here to see you.”

 Did you see a light?        No

 Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?     No

 Have you shared this experience with others?      

Yes    I have shared this with my daughters and with my priest (Anglican). Also with my friends who have suffered losses. Their reactions were that they felt free to share experiences with me that had confused them. Two of my daughters had similar experiences where the Dad they saw was their ‘young’ Dad....not white-haired, white-bearded Dad.

 Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?       No

  Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience? No.

 Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?          No

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?    No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?     No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes