This describes two types of communication, five years apart. 

Five years ago last December, one week before her 52nd birthday, my sister unexpectedly died while sitting in her favorite living room chair. 

The night she died, I was scheduled to work the midnight shift and needed to punch in at 10:30 p.m. As I drove, I heard an unusual clear message in my mind. The message said, "Stop by -----'s on your way to work". She lived only a few blocks off my path... but I thought it to be a strange thing to do... why would I stop at her house unannounced at 10:15 p.m. And if I did, I would be late for work... it made no sense to me at the time. 

The next morning her co-worker called to say she didn't come in, something that was not at all like my sister...and of course we then found her. 

Even though I am a near death experiencer and know that the next life is absolutely beautiful in ways that cannot be adequately described, with a love so amazing and accepting, and that all things are as they should be...I still have been bothered by the haunting message I received that night. Many times I have asked myself, 'What if I had stopped to see her that night?' 'Would she have lived?' 'Would I have been able to share last moments with her?'

Though the message seemed completely unrealistic, I should have taken it seriously. I miss her so much. She was such a huge part of our lives. 

On the fifth anniversary of her death I awoke to my cell phone alarm, which was set for 8:00 a.m. As it went off I awakened in tears from a dream I had had about her. I yelled aloud to her, asking, '-----, what time did you die, I need to know!' As I looked down to turn off the alarm it flashed, '12:38 a.m.' and then quickly flashed back to 8:00 a.m. It was so strange that at first the time thing almost didn't register with me, but then I thought about the time. 12:38 a.m. It was after I went past her house. I sank down on the bed, devastated. Yet, I felt that she was also telling me, 'it's in the past, none of it matters now.' I know she is just fine on the other side. But, it sure has been a tough lesson about learning to trust when I'm spoken to. A few times I have received simpler messages, but, I can tell you, I try to follow through... even if I am inconvenienced by them. Just today, I felt as if I was to give a specific amount of money to a young man with car trouble, I did so, no questions asked. I hope that I will continue to sometimes receive messages and I hope that I will always follow through when they do come.

Was the experience difficult to express in words?     No  

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them? Uncertain 

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?   Uncertain          

Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound, but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?   No sound or voice, just my clock on my cell-phone.                      

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?   No                   

Did you see the deceased?   No                      

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?    No                

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?   Yes     Just matter of fact, as if to say - 'that's past, it no longer matters'.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?   A time very clearly appeared on my phone.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?    Experience was probably real    I can't explain why the phone would show me a strange time.

Was the experience dream like in any way?    No   

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?    No    The time that appeared was not what I expected.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?    Best: I feel like I got an answer. Worst: The 'time' given to me was not what I had expected. I wonder if I could have made a difference the night she died.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?    No        

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?    No   

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?    No    

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?   No

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?    No   

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?       No   

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?        No   

Did you become aware of future events?           No   

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?     No   

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?    No   

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?    No   

Did you see a light?    No   

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?   No   

Have you shared this experience with others?    Yes    Only a few people that I know to understand these types of things. They were wowed and accepting.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?    No   

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?    no

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?    No   

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?   No   

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?      Yes    Had an NDE at age 15 which included an OBE. Numerous other spiritual incidents.