Anne L's ADC
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My
husband announced right before we were leaving on a Christmas cruise last
December 2015 with his family that he was leaving me after 15 years of marriage
and that he had already secured an apartment in the city with the lease to begin
in February 2016. I was absolutely
devastated to say the least. I had
also had been the sole caregiver for my mother for a period of 5 years as my
four other siblings were MIA and had not seen my mother in a decade. My
husband's reason for leaving was that he felt abandoned when I had to take care
of my mother. I was so crushed as I have always cared for and supported my
husband ahead of myself.
February 10, 2016 - I was not
sleeping through the night and found myself wide awake with the recent departure
of my husband. I was dreading Valentine's Day. I had closed my eyes for 10 - 15
minutes and when I opened them, my mother was sitting at the foot of the
left-hand side of the bed and was just smiling at me.
She was in a dress (my favorite dress of hers) and she looked radiant and
healthy as she did before she became sick. The dress choice was interesting to
me because it was not the dress that she was buried in yet it was the one that I
had always adored her in. I
immediately jumped out of bed and exclaimed 'Mom!, you look great!' and then I
hugged her. I can't tell you how
long she stayed (it wasn't long) but it was the most amazing thing and it
remains fresh in my mind's eye and heart today.
I
know that she appeared to me because she knew that I needed help and support for
what I am going through with my husband.
I had never told my mother about my marital struggles due to the fact
that she was in the throws of memory loss. At her bedside, an hour or so before
she passed away, I decided to tell her about my struggles (it was Christmas
night) even though her eyes were closed and she couldn't respond.
I knew somehow that she could hear my voice and understand since she was
on her way to heaven.
After she appeared to me, I was on cloud nine.
I couldn't believe it. I was
so happy and elated. The only thing
that disappointed me was that she didn't say anything to me.
I was hoping for words of wisdom even though her appearance was more than
comforting. My mother had always
taught us that if we found ourselves in trouble that we should pray to God who
would be there to help us. I have
been praying to God for marriage restoration and so that could be another reason
why she appeared. Anyway, it was
absolutely amazing. I think about
her every day and wish that she would appear again.
Was this experience difficult to express in words?
No
Did you ONLY sense an awareness of presence of the
deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling or smelling them?
No
Did you hear the deceased or hear something
associated with the deceased?
No
Did you feel a touch or experience any physical
contact from the deceased?
Yes
we hugged each other.
Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?
We didn't hug a lot growing up but more so as she became older and sick.
So, it was familiar but a lot more meaningful.
Was anything communicated by the touch?
Not in words. Just a hug of comfort
and love.
Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in
the surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
Did you see the deceased?
Yes
Looked healthy and not as she did when she died when she was frail and
unresponsive.
How clearly did the deceased appear?
Very clear and solid.
How much of the deceased did you see?
I could see everything but her shoes and bottom of legs.
Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which
they died?
She looked as if she was 70-ish.
How healthy did the deceased appear to be?
looked very healthy and stylish as usual.
Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other
source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?
no
Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance
or odor associated with the deceased?
No
How long did the experience last?
maybe a minute or less
Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?
She was right there in the beginning and the ending was more abrupt.
As when I released from the hug, she was gone.
Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?
Yes
Very happy and happy to see me.
I felt she was proud of me too.
Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?
no
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was
definitely real
Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not
real:
Because I was sleeping in a different bedroom than
I had been in for 15 years and she knew to appear there.
Also, it just 'felt' real.
The emotion I received from it was so different in contrast to an emotion felt
from a dream.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No
Describe in detail
your feelings/emotions during the experience:
Felt incredulous, amazed, relieved, happy, validated, reassured, ecstatic, loved
Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?
Yes
I felt like she validated that she heard me when I was speaking to her on
her death bed.
What was the best and worst part of your experience?
Seeing my mother. Realizing she
was gone.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of
your experience?
No