I have already explained and submitted this so may be repeating myself here. I was lying in my bed four days after my mother died and my father came down from the top right hand side of my bedroom kissed me on the cheek and left. a wave or surge like the size of a broomstick swept through my body with huge intensity and went out through my feet - It was so unexpected as he had hated me so much to last few years of his life. It was the top half of his body and it was like he swung down on a bungee cord. I couldn't believe it - I was not in grief, panicking, miserable or even properly asleep!! It was an intensely powerful experience.

In response to the below questions he was like he was there in person as he used to be when he was the "old " dad who I loved!! He actually kissed me on the cheek as in real life. I felt him. He didn't say a word.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?  the intense feeling of love that surged through my body is difficult to explain - the power or intensity of it.

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?            Yes

he kissed me on the left hand cheek

            Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?   Just exactly like the old dad.

            Was anything communicated by the touch?  the surge in  a shape of a broomstick that surged through my body - it was of intense love

            Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?  totally absolutely not.

Did you see the deceased?         Yes

it was the dad of a few years younger in his old checked shirt and he was always a quick mover and he did this all very quickly as he would have done

            How clearly did the deceased appear?            totally solid - only the top half of his body but totally as if it were actually him there.

            How much of the deceased did you see?       the top half of his body from the waist up

            Did the deceased appear or not appear to be the age at which they died?       It was the old dad who did love me when he was probably in his 40s or 50s.

            How healthy did the deceased appear to be?            He was his old self and in full bloom - always he was quite round and he was his old round self!!

            Is there any possibility what you saw was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?           absolutely not it was early morning just light and I was alone at my house.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        probably 3-4minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         He came in very suddenly and whooshed down and off quickly just like he would have done!!

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           Yes

I guess I sensed he was on a mission and clearly it was to tell me he loved me. It is probably the most powerful experience of my life.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  no

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:           because I wasn't really asleep - and the powerfulness of the experience and in my opinion I am not crazy!!!

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  I guess you could say it was like a dream except it was far more powerful and it is a thing I will never ever forget.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           total amazement - the last person I would be thinking about was my father!!!

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

definitely - it has been the turning point for getting over how nasty my father was and starting to remember him as my old dad.;

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      the best part is I can now forget how horrible he was to me the last few years of his life and I  now do believe he  was ill and probably wasn't seeing things right - his aunt also treated her eldest daughter terribly in her last years so guess its a family trait or mental illness that they went that way - I always tried my very best with him but it just got worse and worse - it broke my heart. The whole experience of him coming down was amazing, wondrous - there was not worst part except guess it would be nice for other people to believe me.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes                   I operate towards everyone with more love - I live each day knowing mum and dad are still here.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I definitely believe  now that  there is something more than this life. It has changed the way I look at everything. I believe that the only thing that matters in this life is what dad showed me - love - o I know that sounds corny but the experience was so very real.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?            Yes     I totally believe in an afterlife now. Totally.

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?        No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?            totally amazed euphoric ecstatic - over the moon just utter amazement.

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?      I am probably fantasizing here but have a granddaughter with cerebral palsy. I was driving one day shortly afterwards and  stopped the car and broke down  crying and said to my dad who I now believe is around me, that the thing I want most in the world is for Lily the granddaughter to be normal. We were told she may never walk etc. She seems to be going from strength to strength and is walking everywhere  and  seems she will lead a normal life !! Maybe this would have happened anyway though.  Hard to say! I like to believe its dad who has made it possible!!

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?            No

Have you shared this experience with others?        

Yes     most say I was  dreaming - some say I was hallucinating - I was worried I might be losing the plot and went to the local vicar who says its ok to see something once but if happens again to get help. My old aunts however when telling them, all then share their own experiences with seeing my grandparents or uncles etc - maybe its a family thing!!

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?   No

 Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?       no just guess I would like confirmation I am not crazy from someone other than myself!!!

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?            No

I still take no drugs prescription or otherwise.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?           Yes 

YES WHEN  very young I was very ill and my mother moved me to the sunroom. I saw a beautiful angel come down the hallway to me and then faded away - I could still draw you a picture of her.

Around twenty years ago I was terribly upset when my family blamed me for something I didn't do. they wouldn't listen to me. My grandfathers head appeared on the kitchen table of our old home and I picked his head up lovingly and placed it on the pillow in the bed he used to sleep in when he was staying at our house. He looked up at me and said 'Don't worry everything will be alright.' I didn't worry one minute more about the situation - I felt like a drunk person - euphoric for days afterwards - like I was walking on air.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes

just hard to explain in words the intensity of the love I felt from dad. 

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    no