On the 24th of July in the year 2019, my mother left this world in a hospital bed in London, UK. I was there with my son; it was 3:40 AM when she passed. I was very worried that she wouldn't go to where I believe our souls go after leaving the body. The reason I was worried was because myself and my two boys were everything to my mother, and I was tortured by the thought that she would stay with us and not go where she belonged after leaving her body. That was a big worry, and as she was passing, I remember repeatedly saying, "Mum, please don't stay behind. Let your soul be free and go where you're supposed to go."

After a few minutes, a doctor came to certify she was dead, and my son and I had to leave the room. We came back after 15 minutes, and as we approached the room, I instantly felt a big pressure on me and sensed my mother's energy. During that first experience, I felt she was confused and that her soul was still ill because I felt everything she had experienced while in the hospital, including the illness. As we got inside the room to prepare her for the mortuary, I kept talking to her in my mind, urging her to go and not to stay. I believed that if she went where she was supposed to go, she would feel better and free. I am sure our souls are not meant to stay behind but to move on so that they feel good and free of illness and earthly burdens.

After we got her ready, we accompanied her to the mortuary and then left the hospital. We caught a taxi, and immediately as I seated myself in the back seat, I felt a totally different energy than I had felt earlier. I still knew it was my mother, but this time, the energy was one of unconditional love, something I had never felt before and didn’t feel was from this world. It's very difficult to describe the feeling—it was a very bright, colorful energy that seemed to be singing and dancing and enveloping me. At the same time, I felt my mother saying to me exactly these words: "I'm going on my path. I'm very happy. Don't worry about me; I'm very well!" I didn’t hear my mother’s voice, but it felt like she was communicating through my soul. I don't know how to explain it. All I know is that it was my mother, and she didn’t leave before making sure I knew she was happy, well, and going where she was supposed to go. She didn’t tell me where she was going, and I couldn’t ask anything. That unconditional love wrapped me in a way that left me unable to speak or think! This experience will stay with me forever, and I will remember it for as long as I live.

Another thing I almost forgot is that after that day, I recovered from my health issues and remained well for about three years after that experience. It was as if that energy had healed me at the time.

Have you had multiple experiences?

No response.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?

Yes. The communication is what is hardest to express, as it was a feeling, not words. However, I could understand perfectly what she was telling me.

Did you ONLY sense an awareness of the presence of the deceased without actually seeing, hearing, feeling, or smelling them?

Yes.

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?

Yes.

Describe what you heard, how clearly you heard it, and what was communicated:

As I mentioned, I didn't hear her; I felt my mother communicating with my soul deeply inside me.

Did the voice or sound seem to originate externally or outside of you, inside you, or did you not hear a voice or sound but had a sense of knowing what was communicated?

Yes, I knew she was communicating because I received loud and clear what she was saying. Yet, I didn't hear it; I felt it in my soul.

If you heard a voice or sound, was it similar or dissimilar to the voice or sound the deceased made when they were alive?

I didn't hear anything. I felt the communication deep inside me, and I was able to understand what she was saying without hearing her.

Is there any possibility what you heard was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?

No!

Was there any possible impairment to your hearing at the time of the experience?

No!

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased?

Yes. On different occasions, a few minutes after she passed, I felt she was confused and that her soul was still feeling ill. The second time, in the taxi, I felt she was free and happy, and the energy was unconditional love, which is indescribable.

Was the touch familiar or unfamiliar?

The touch was the energy wrapping me. I just knew it was my mother. I could feel her. I don't know how to describe it, but I just knew!

Was anything communicated by the touch?

Not by the touch, but deep inside me.

Is there any possibility what you felt was from any other source present in the surroundings at the time of your experience?

No! As I didn't hear it, I felt it!

Did you see the deceased?

No.

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance, or odor associated with the deceased?

No.

How long did the experience last?

The first time, maybe 10 minutes, as I felt her while we were getting her ready to go to the mortuary. In the taxi, it lasted maybe 5 minutes. I really don't know. After, I felt like I was in the clouds. Ah! And I didn't grieve my mother. How could I? She communicated, saying she was happy! I cried but didn't grieve.

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?

I think sudden, but I'm not sure.

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?

Yes. First, she was confused and still feeling ill, having passed only 20 minutes prior. In the taxi, over 2 hours later, I felt she was totally different, happier, and transmitting such love to me.

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?

The only information I received was to put me at ease, as I was very worried about her soul. She communicated that I should not worry about her, that she was very happy, well, and going where she needed to go. That was all!

Did you believe in ADCs prior to your experience?

Absolutely.

Do you believe in ADCs now?

Absolutely.

Did you believe in an afterlife prior to your experience?

Absolutely.

Do you now believe in an afterlife?

Absolutely.

Did you believe in God or a Supreme Being prior to your experience?

Believed God probably exists.

Do you now believe in God or a Supreme Being?

Absolutely.

Were you afraid of death before your experience?

Not fearful.

Are you afraid of death now?

Not fearful.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?

The experience was definitely real.

Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:

As real as my everyday life!

Was the experience dreamlike in any way?

No.

What did you feel (while awake) immediately prior to your experience?

Happy.

Sad.

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:

When I felt my mother in the hospital room, I was worried and sad, worried that her soul would stay behind and not go where she was supposed to go. I was sad because she had just passed. In the taxi, I felt happy and relaxed, as the experience was completely different—the emotion of the communication was from night to day! In the hospital room, her soul was confused and still feeling the disease. In the taxi, her soul had already found its way, was feeling happy, and was well.

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?

Uncertain. I don't think there was emotional healing, but there was physical healing. I suddenly started to feel well for up to three years after my experience. However, it didn't last longer than that.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?

The best part was being able to feel my mother and knowing and feeling how happy she was and how well she was.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?

Uncertain. Maybe it gave me confirmation of what I already knew. It’s only the body that dies; our soul continues on its journey.

What other attitudes and beliefs about your experience do you currently have?

No particular attitude.

Did you have any changes in attitudes or beliefs following the experience?

No.

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?

Yes. I always believed in life after death. I had experiences in the past that confirmed it. However, this experience with my mother gave me confirmation and feelings I never had before!

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s). Have you ever made such a compact?

Yes. I did mention previously that my mother and I always talked about communicating after passing. And she did. I am so grateful!

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?

Uncertain. I don't think so. How can one verify that my mother communicated with me?

What emotions did you feel during the experience?

I didn’t grieve at all! And I was feeling happy. I know it's difficult to understand. I had just lost my mother, and I was feeling happy! I was so grateful she communicated with me, putting me at ease before she went to her new place, wherever that would be! Of course, I cried, but not even much. I felt such peace and love in my heart!

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?

Yes, by my son.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?

Yes. It was as if time didn't exist. Referring to the experience in the taxi, while I was wrapped in that unconditional love, there was no time or anything else for me. It was like being taken to an empty space. Only now, talking about it, I recall that!

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order, and/or purpose?

Uncertain. I'm not sure about that.

Did you become aware of future events?

No.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal, or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?

Uncertain. I have always been sensitive to energies, and I always believed our soul lives forever. Maybe that made it easier for my mother to communicate with me. I really don't know.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?

Uncertain. I'm not sure if that was what I felt in the taxi, as I felt unable to move while having the experience.

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?

No.

Did you see a light?

Yes. I felt the light. When that energy wrapped me in the taxi, I felt and saw the light inside me! I know it's confusing, but I'm being as truthful as I can. That's how I felt!

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?

No.

Have you shared this experience with others?

Yes, with friends and some family. I don't think they were influenced.

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or website?

No.

Is there anything else you would like to add regarding your experience?

First time I'm sharing formally and never informally!

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?

Uncertain. To express the feeling of unconditional love received, which I had never felt anything like that! Knowing it was my mother communicating with me, however, I didn't hear or see her. I felt and received the information. It was as if she was communicating telepathically. It's the communication that's difficult to express because I didn't hear her; I felt deep inside me she was talking to me and giving that unconditional love, which was an amazingly wonderful love! And it had only been over 2 hours since she had passed. We had agreed to try to contact whoever passed first. Also, she knew I was very worried about her soul, so she wanted to comfort me and assure me she was well.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications, or substances that reproduced any part of the experience?

No.

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out-of-body experience, or other spiritual event?

Uncertain. Not a death experience, but for sure many other spiritual experiences.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?

Yes.